i close my eyes, and the flashback starts.

Friday, May 29, 2009

 

truth is i am done pretending

when people change, it's usually for the worse. you hardly notice it. until one day you just wake up and realize how much you've changed. but when you change for the better, gah. it's easier said than done.

one of my number one traits is being so moody. this morning i woke up at 5:40 in the morning and i was like, wtf? why is my phone under my pillow? how am i supposed to wake up to the muffled sound of my alarm?apparently my mom put it there while i was asleep. (note: i am a heavy sleeper, so i didn't feel a thing) i was so pissed, i wanted to punch something. my foot didn't hurt anymore, and that made me even more ticked off because it was perfectly fine for me to run now. i slept at 10-ish for this, damn it. and so tomorrow, when i run, my legs are gonna itch. hate it when that happens.

it was too early to blog, so i just wrote on my diary. then i went on facebook(at 5 in the morning! lulz), then watched some telly. holy crow, white horse is on myx! lulz. i remember there was this one time i commented on myx's multiply page about them not playing other taylor swift songs. heh. after that, i got a tad happier. then i read my diary and saw how mad i was earlier for the stupidest reason. i was like, "wow i need help!"

napansin niyo, i don't do titles where i say that i'm gonna rant anymore? cause i always rant now. it's crazy. this will be my last...i hope. (:

Thursday, May 28, 2009

 

Life always waits for some crisis to occur before revealing itself at its most brilliant.

yssa called me up about an hour ago cause she was bored. woah. it's been a while since that happened. anyway, i'm still a bit sleepy, but that's ok. i have just finished reading eleven minutes at around 2 in the morning. then i watched dracula on HBO, i've been watching a lot of movies lately. usually, i don't have the patience to watch them. then i watched CSI: Miami--I hate CSI: Miami. But when I saw this guy in the morgue wake up, i couldn't seem to get myself to change the channel. lolz. (: you're probably wondering why i slept so late when i'm supposed to wake up at 5 in the morning everyday.

rewind and freeze.yesterday, during my morning run at nfa(valerie's been too lazy to wake up), daddy took a little too long with badminton. he picked me up around 7:30 ish, so basically i've been running for about two hours. i felt awesome, of course. but the whole awesomeness faded when i took my shoes off. my feet hurt like shizz! lolz. it was irritating. so i just lied down and tried reading, but i fell asleep. honestly, i thought it would go away when i'd just sleep on it. this used to happened to me all the time during taekwondo, that my classmates would just laugh at me whenever i walked akwardly in school and say something like, "hey van, did your foot get ran over by a motorcycle again?"--and that really happened, btw. once. anyway, back then it would go away in a few hours but then when i woke up around 2-ish, my foot still hurt. so i just watched television. it was too bad i couldn't get out. i always wanted to go to the park with a can of soda and a good book and read all afternoon, see, it's been a while since i read a book talaga, since i've been reading nothing but ebooks-after promising to myself i wouldn't spend any more money on books. (:
everytime i see beedle the bard and the twilight saga, i'd cuss at myself and think "what the hell were you thinking? after reading them on the computer, you had to buy them! why'd you have to be so effing ostentatious?!"
i've been wanting to sell them so bad, but i don't think anyone's stupid enough to pay for something you can get at the bookstore that looks wayy better. beedle the bard, eclipse and breaking dawn all look good as new--if you don't count the names on the right corner on the first page, since they have never been out of the house ever since the day they arrived. as for twilight and new moon, they look pretty bad. i'd sell them for 150, that is, if anyone would buy them xDD

back to the present.i obviously loved it. it's always nice to be able to try reading something new, after all that lemony snicket and eek!~stephenie meyer i've been stuck with. i've read the devil and miss prym when i was in my sophomore year, but ate danja was still reading it, so i wasn't able to finish. but it was really good. i seem to have forgotten how good Coelho was until i read eleven minutes, but whatever. i wanna read the devil and miss prym. i hope my sister would let me borrow her book.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

 

hell-oh

currently reading: (rd's recommendation) eleven minutes - paulo coelho

yssa and i are friends again. (:
i know, i'm shocked too. lol.

but, i think there's one person not happy about it. now, i've dropped her name many times before during one of my petty rants, and now she's become a blind item since i have this feeling that she visits my blog. well now, READ THIS LITTLE MISS YOU-KNOW-WHO-YOU-ARE.
I know you're shocked that we're back, and I can see that you refuse to believe it. But I don't care. Yssa and I have already put the past behind us, and no matter what you say about her, I wouldn't care anymore. I can see what you're trying to do. Talking shit about her to cover up your stink / to keep her all to yourself. But that's not gonna work anymore. I don't care what you think or say about me as well, so you can just go on pretending that you're happy about it. mmkay? Or you can talk more shit, like that'll do you any good. ;p

moving on..
now that i've realized that i've been hanging out with the wrong people, what am i gonna do? I can't just stop hanging out with them, or else they're gonna get really mad or say that i've changed and stuff. i need to be the vanessa i used to be. lol. serious, mature. without being totally the old me. cause now i'm more optimistic and understanding--i think. ;]

i checked my new year's resolution post and let's review:
1) be more optimistic: semi-done.
2) control my temper(and my tongue). lol i have to get started on this one. (:
3) save more. i didn't have a summer job. :(
4) be more sociable. i've gotten myself more friends, all right. the wrong kind. but, i got Yssa back, so plus points, eh? lollerz.
5) expand the vocab. heh.
6) get a course. i already have plan a. but i'm still needing back-up. and nursing is next to skipping college. xD
7) clean the room. lol

Sunday, May 24, 2009

 

drop a heart break a name

listening to: it's my life - bon jovi

i slept at rd's last night and we both made a realization. yssa did NOT change. i did! i was the one immature. i was the one riding on top of tricycles, screaming her heart out. i was the one cussing at someone i don't even know. i was the one extra loud. i wasn't like this before. i think it's because i started hanging out with the wrong people. the only good thing i got off of hanging out with these people is that i've become nicer. that's it. something has to be done.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

 

growing up


you say hep hep, i say hep hep.

we went to poly yesterday morning and had the PYC. it's not provincial youth camp anymore, now it's provincial youth Conference. Anyway, I don't know if i remember talking about it here, but tita ann~yssa's mom and mommy's good friend wants Yssa to be active in YFC again, so i forced mom to force tita ann into making yssa come to the PYC. and tita didn't know that we weren't so close like we used to be anymore, but she told mommy to tell me to call yssa up. so i forced val to do it instead. ah, the perks of having a twin sister. (: anyway, yssa said she'd like to come, but she doesn't have much friends in yfc so we told her that inna would come if she would come. then inna cancelled at the last minute so i asked inna not to tell yssa so she'd still come. i wanted us so bad to be good friends again, so super effort talaga. but when i saw her, it was like how landon used to look at jamie before they hooked up. i felt bad about myself and stuff and was in awe with how somebody could change like that. no offense to mina, yeye and ate camille, but she's totally siena-ized. lol. very diplomatic, and so damn prim and proper. i was so intimidated. it felt like the first time i saw yeye after i looked through our elementary pictures the night before. i was soo freaking intimidated. but i'm not now,(with yeye) of course. i was like, "woah. where did all that come from?!" and it felt weird, like i did something bad or something. when i looked at her. later i realized, i did. i ruined our friendship. it would be so convenient to put the blame on somebody, but i won't do that. I believed the lies, and i helped spread them. it was still my fault. and i simply can't act like it didn't happen.

so i decided that maybe, we can be friends again or something. see, there were different teams during the conference. Mariz Lacorte, who was with Yssa, was in the yellow team, and i was in the purple team and Yssa was in pink with Jassen and Vanessa Buenacosa. And so i switched teams for her and i went with the pink team. Then Valerie found out and she was the chapter head and she told the youth head about it and i got in a lot of trouble for what i did. and yssa was like, "dito ka na lang sa pink" because she wasn't really friends with pande and van-van, and i felt pretty bad cause i promised inna i would be all fc with her. and i was happy, cause at least, she wanted me to be in the same team with her. so i said to myself i'd make it up to her later. then i texted rd to help me out in the FC department, and she gave me these tips and stuff but they didn't work because we just didn't click. she used to be like the nicer one and i used to be the one who would snap at people all the time. for example, she thought this multicab was going to Tacurong when it was going to Isulan and she was all, "ayoko magsakay jan, puno man yan" and all I said was "ako rin, puro lalake pa gid". When i'm sure you'd bet i would have said something along the lines of "Paano ka magsakay jan eh pa-isulan yan, tayo pa-tacurong?".. and when i said something wrong last night, she was all corrective and everything. and that was so not the Yssa i knew. she was all grown up and i was there acting like i was 5 years younger. I used to just see this on television and wonder what happened to my sister and her best friend from high school but now i now what it's like. We totally drifted apart. I honestly thought that i could still patch things up, but i guess i can't. So it's time to say goodbye to sharing the same diary and telling tita ann we're gonna talk about something important instead we talk on the phone for hours. I'll get over it. I know I will. ((:

Even though the whole yssa thing didn't go so well, i'm glad i tried. i hate asking myself what if?


during the praise and fashion. some girl and Leonard, Rey and May8, Umpa and Aileen.

anyway, the PYC was great. yabz is back! lol. she went on yfc hiatus because her tita doesn't like yfc but now she's gone, soo yea. (: i tried not to sleep but i gave up around 3:45 in the morning. then around 6 we went back to Tacurong~yssa and i were on the same tricycle when we were going home~ and slept until 3pm.

I'm ending my 12 forever thing, from now on I'm gonna try to act more mature. good luck to me!

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

 

the day after

yesterday was much, much better than last year. except for the fact that i was such an emotional wreck yesterday. lol. anyway, fifteen. err. i feel awful. i dreaded 13, and i pretended i wasn't 14. but 15! oh gawd, this is too much.

whatever. i'm 12 forever man.

anyway, we went to church in the morning, then had breakfast at the convent/place where priests live--the parish priest is our godfather, soo yea. we got some moolah. haha.

then we went home and i slept until noon or something. and the weather was freaking awesome! haha. some people don't like rain, i loove rain. xDD when the rain stopped, i went over to inna's cafe and brought food, since we can't go out anymore.

finally, the princess hours dvd from ebay arrived, and i watched it all afternoon. ~screw boys over flowers! asar, ang dami kong kaagaw dun sa vanness nila. lollerz.

other stuff that made my day:
1. half a dozen original glazed donuts from rd ((:


2. the cake that we got from YFC - or what's left of it.


3. daddy showing up. lol. you guys know my situation. x3

4. i withdrew some money from the bank for my trip to cebu, now i can deposit it back.

5. person greeted me! weird. no, it's not a boy. she and i used to be so close, but we seemed to drift apart. then yesterday inasar ko pa siya cause i caught her logging on when i went invisible~and vice versa. hate it when that happens. i don't care if you're online and we don't talk. when greysh/mina/jue ann are online, most times we don't talk, but we're friends. you didn't have to do that. it's so rude. but you greeted me! lol. maybe you commented me before i snapped, but thank you person. ((: lollerz.


Thursday, May 14, 2009

 

step up or get stepped on

"Ladies, you need to understand that as long as you got a vagina, you run the entire motherfucking Universe. That’s the way it is. You need to understand that. Ladies, I’m telling you… you gotta be the shit to you. Stop waitin’ on a lil’ boy to verify whether you the shit or not. Bitch, if you the shit; you the motherfucking shit."

-Katt Williams

tagged by..Diana. lol (:

8 things I'm looking forward to
1. Seeing my friends
2. School
3. HP6
4. My brother to start college so he'll leave us!
5. Taylor Swift on CSI
6. Having the talk with daddy.
7. Get my hands on an original Goong DVD.
8. What will happen to Chuck and Blair?

8 things I did yesterday
1. Slept til noon.
2. Tweaked my blog
3. Showered
4. Laughed out loud
5. Forwarded RD the text that made me lol
6. Eat spaghetti
7. Wrote on my diary
8. Returned the Clique to Darlene

8 things I wish I could do
1. Head stand
2. Be a celebrity
3. Be really good at any martial art
4. Watch all of Audrey Hepburn's movies
5. Be better at HTML
6. Sing
7. Be ~that girl with 1 million friends~
8. Finish reading a classic

8 shows I watch
1. CSI
2. CSI: NY
3. The Hills
4. Gossip Girl
5. 90210~just a little
6. The OC
7. Ellen
8. Hole in the wall. heh

8 people I tag
anyone

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Monday, May 11, 2009

 

Love letter

lss:
I'm a beast when you turn me on
Into the future cybertron
Harder, faster, better, stronger
Sexy ladies extra longer
Cause we got the beat that bounce
We got the beat that pound
We got the beat that 8-0-8
That boom boom in yo tooown

Dear Jassen,
I don't really know how to tell you this, our affair is over. I think I realized it when I finally changed my underwear in your closet and I saw you sit on my illegitimate child in Ghana. I'm sure you're cowardly enough to understand that I get turned on only by garbage men. I'm returning your Hannah Montana underwear to you, but I'll keep your criminal record as a memory. You should also know that I haven't showered in a month and I'm scratching my butt as you read this.

Best of luck on the sex change,
Vanessa

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Here's how you do it:
Dear (someone you recently talked to),
I don't really know how to tell you this,(1). I think I realized it (2)(3) and I saw you (4)(5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning your (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) and (11).

(12),
Name
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1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - I dislike your eyelashes
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - Purple hedgehogs want to destroy you
Other - Our affair is over

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forrest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I finally changed my underwear
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When I saw the purple monkey
August - When you smacked my ass
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I threw up in your sock drawer

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
Chicken- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Lasagna - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Other - With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Other -shamed

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - My virginity
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbors dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your suicide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Love your sweet, sweet ass
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Will not tell the authorites that you stole the whale from the backyard.
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Hate your cooking
M/N - Haven’t showered in a month
O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
Mineral/Vitamin water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex change
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - Go drown yourself

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Wednesday, May 6, 2009

 

finally.

hindi na ganun ka sipag ang mga tao mag-blog ngayon.
sige lang. go parin ako. lulz


1. I can't whistle.
2. If I really enjoy a book, I’ll read it more than once. I've read a few old favorits a dozen times. 3. I have a collection of stamps.
4. I wish my name was Georgina.
5. I don't like going to movies.
6. I sing along to the opening credits of CSI, CSI: NY, and CSI:Miami
7. I don't watch CSI:Miama cause i find the guy's neck-twitching too distracting
8. I hate it when people use jaja, or jeje. especially guys. i mean, who laughs like that?!
9. I procrastinate too much.
10. I'm so desperate to get lighter skin.
11. I'm married to Hayden Christensen and Chace Crawford
12. I get goosebumps when I read A Series of Unfortunate Events.
13. Blair and Chuck make me cry.
14. My all-time favorite movie is Big Fish.
15. I like Audrey Hepburn.
16. I still use the term tao-tao. For example, Pangit man yang Transformers na cartoons uy. Mas astig yung tao-tao.
17. When I was a kid, I used to watch Andrew E. movies on Viva cinema every Sunday.
18. I was allowed to cross the road with an older person when I was 10. I tried crossing the street when I was in grade 2, and I got in heaps of trouble.
19. I don't like action movies much. Like the ones with all the guns and explosions.
20. I snap on people who have bad grammar.

classmate: san i-held?
me: anong sabi mo? i-held? wag ka daw mag-taglish be, kung mali-mali man din.


21. I like phones with big screens. My dream phone used to be a sidekick3, but i realized it's impossible to have that in the Philippines, so now it's this.
22. I like cars.
23. I listen to everything. And my dad influenced me to listen to classics. From Jimmy Smith to Cat Stevens to The Beatles. Especially The Beatles.
24.When we were young, our lullabies were If I fell is and PS I Love You.
25. I'm closer to my cousins in my father's side, cause they're much, much more mature.
26. I may look tough and all, but I'm really not.
27. I've had a diary since I was in 5th grade but I barely write on it now cause I prefer typing. (: 28. I hate books-cause they're so fragile.
29. I haven't read a single classic.
30. I took dancing lessons when I was in 1st grade, and I suck at it.
31. I also took singing, karate and taekwondo lessons.
32. I'd trade all my books for a Kindle2.
33. I'm awesome at airguitar.
34. I don't get along with people my age.
35. My favorite drama ever is Goong.
36. I always mistype now as know.
37. I collect flip-flops.
38. I still get sick on long trips.
39. I try to spend as much time with music as much as possible, and so far I've been doing great.
40. I like to dance, but I'm terrible at it.
41. I don't proofread.
42. One of my biggest dreams is to be on the cover of asiaweek just like my grandfather.
43. I prefer to be barefoot.
44. I believe in reincarnation.
45. After crying for 3 hours until I fell asleep, I now hate crying.
46. I like hugs wayy better than kisses.
47. I'm bad with numbers.
48. I read very fast.
49. I'm super random in person.
50. I tell everything to God, and Valerie.
51. Whenever I walk on the street and there would be pervs being all, "hi ga, pwede pangayo number mo?" I'd pause and say "Go fuck yourself, asshole."
52. I listen to Linkin Park whenever I'm bored.
53. I'm glad I hate drinking.
54. Sleeping pills have no effect on me anymore. I have drank super strong coffee and took barbiturates after[and vice versa] too many times.
55. I haTe i+ wh3n ppOL typ3 like thi5
56. I prefer to use the terms lezbo, bisexual or gay, rather than lesbian talaga.
57. When I'm bored, I speak IM.
58. I used to make myself a new Myspace every couple of months.
59. I joined Friendster in 5th grade cause I saw Hilary Duff's picture someone's profile at an internet cafe.
60. I've only been to one concert. (:
61. Cotabato is such a big part of our family, but I've never been there before.
62. I hate cross-dressers.
63. Jessica Zafra is my favorite author.
64. Chicken Pox for the Soul is my bible.
65. I do not eat okra and ampalaya.
66. My knees hurt when I eat beans. ) :
67. When people talk like they know something, but they're so wrong or it's old news, I snap at them.
68. I rush things.
69. I like to help people.
70. Do Something is my favorite Britney video and song everr.
71. I'm bad at catching stuff.
72. I used to have boycut hair.
73. I used to lie all the time. Now, i consider lying a one-way ticket to ending a friendship.
74. I like puppies. I just don't like it when they get big/old.
75. I only have one stuffed toy. It's a teddy bear I got for Christmas when I was in fifth grade.
76. I have a love-hate relationship with g-tec's. the shortest period of time i've ever owned one was a day.
77. Some people get shocked when I say I'm a pacifist.
78. Revenge is sweet. ;] I learned how to hack in 5th grade.
79. Having a love life is currently the least of my priorities. Really.
80. I bite my ice cream.
81. The real reason why I don't have a cell phone is not because I'm letting my mom use it(but that's true too) but because wala akong kwentang kausap.
82. In sophomore year, there was this guy who was taking a picture of me in school and i yelled at him right after mass and he cried. (:
83. I don't like friendster, but since all the cool kids are using it.. ulollerz.
84. I tend to bite my lips a lot until they bleed.
85. I don't eat exotic food. and dinuguan is counted as exotic in my book.
86. I've never bought an album in my life.
87. I'm starting to expect the best in people. It’s something I’d like to change. The Devil and Miss Prym made me realize that people are essentially selfish, no matter how you'd wish they weren't.
88. I would like to be fluent in a language other than English.
89. I am a list maker. I feel enormous satisfaction when I cross something off.
90. I am also intrinsically lazy.
91. I like vanilla ice cream best of all.
92. Big words make me feel cool.
93. I tend to worry a lot.
94. I'm afraid of huge grins. This is because of a Shake, Rattle and Roll movie.
95. I suck at reading aloud.
96. I love T.I.
97. I've called every color my favorite except for grey.
98. It took me 6 months to get this list done.
99. I don't like cats.
100. If I had one super power, it would be the ability to control time. (:

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we got the beat that bounce

lss:
I'm happy you left me
I'm glad that you hurt me
It's a magical feeling
Knowing that you're not meant for me
about the previous post, i'm really sorry about that.
no one's really supposed to read that. i figured na if i had it on strikethrough, you'd still be able to read that, so i did something else. but that didn't work. oh well.
note to self: create another blog

i haven't been posting so much cause there hasn't really been much to talk about.
but no worries, i still read your posts naman. (:
ang tagal ng pasukan. >_<

Saturday, May 2, 2009

 

oh my, my, my

LSS of the moment:
love of mine, someday you will die
but i'll be close behind
i'll follow you into the dark

the other night i saw into the wild, cause i wanted to see why catherine hardwicke fell in love with kristen here. anyway, gawd, that movie sucked! it was so effing depressing. i was seriously hoping that he could live, since i understood where he was coming from and all. but he didn't! ugh. and this isn't like the tragedy in the mist where you're like, "of course they'll kill themselves. duh!" i got so absorbed with the damn movie. and it just made me EXTRA pessimistic.

.sekiy .oot ,htam yduts dna .agalat tseb ym evig dna evitisop kniht ot evah tsuj i tub !od ot tahw aedi on evah i ?woh ,tub .od ll'i tahw s'taht dna .drah laer dekrow eh esuac deneppah siht lla taht dna ,won sah eh efil eht morf raf saw efil sih taht dias yeht .)gniyas tsuj ,tnediserp eht s'otit ym dna(.oavad atoyot fo namriahc ekil won si ohw-rehtafdnarg ym rof saw efil drah woh tuoba deklat ew dna snisuoc ruo htiw dah ew noisses gniknird siht rebmemer i .yllaicepse ,ylimaf ym rof .retteb eb dluow sgniht taht hsiw tsuj i .erac t'nod i .tahw derevocsid ro ohw htiw evolni llef ro ,ohw teem t'nod i fi erac t'nod i !ylsuoires .gnihtyreve pu evig d'i .erutuf eht fo esruoc eht egnahc fo tros uoy ?thgir ,tsap eht egnahc uoy nehw sneppah tahw s'taht esuac ,efil ym ni secneirepxe tseb eht pu gnivig snaem ti fi erac t'nod i .sgniht egnahc tsuj dna )ehcilc os ,hud(emit ni kcab og dluoc i taht hsiw tsuj i .taht fo esuaceb thgin ta peels t'nac i dna .ecaf ym ni ereht thgir era tegrof tsuj ro pu revoc ot deirt ev'i taht efil ym ni gniht gnorw yreve dna sekatsim ym lla ,hguorht enog ev'i parc eht lla ,ekil

today's my del corro grand father's 11th death anniversary. and we're celebrating. weird. for me, at least. cause dad's always been so funny. when he was alive, mamang-our grandmother would say, that during his mom's death anniversary he would ask mamang to cook pancit, and mamang would be like, "why? shouldn't we be mourning?" and dad would just say, "mourning? she's with God now. so let's celebrate!" gosh, i miss dad. (:

i wonder when this depression would be over...

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