i close my eyes, and the flashback starts.

this is how the dress looked like:

the color looks different here, prolly because of the lighting. and this is me and Klier:

i have more pics on my friendster. i didn't upload the others, because i sort of had raccoon eyes. lolz. purple eyeliner sux.
what's more sucky is chemistry, geometry and pe. in chemistry, we're discussing gas laws and no matter how i try to listen and understand, i just can't. geom was going just fine, thank you very much until i saw the equation i haven't seen in a year and a half. y=mx+b aka slopes. I didn't even bother to listen, cause I knew I still won't understand any of it. I just stared at the blackboard while day dreaming. lulz. As for pe, you all know how much I hate balls, right? As in every kind of ball? Anyway, we're having volleyball and we're having a practicum tomorrow which sucks because Sir Defiño just taught us the different ways to serve this morning. ugh, and I didn't even try because I was so scared. heck, there were 20 volleyballs in the air and I kept turning around just to make sure I wouldn't get hit or anything. and we have to do thirty somethings without letting the ball fall on the floor. ugh. Next week, we're going to have a dry run for the new schedule. The bell's gonna ring at 7:30, and classes will start at 8:00. Sounds nice? Think again. Lunch is 12:30-1:30 and we're not allowed to get out of school. Curses. I bet this is just another scheme for the school so that students would buy the viands they serve. Oh, please. Not only that, dismissal is at 4:30 and cell phones aren't allowed anymore! And we're not even allowed to use them during recess or lunch. Geez. and if our parents like it, they're implementing it next year. stupid school.

i never thought i'd say this, but prom was hellah fun. lol
despite the fact that the shoes i was wearing got broken, and that the music during the disco part sucked, it was pretty awesome.

so what am i terrified to remember? lol i'll say it anyway. during the "sweet dance" part, matthew, my classmate and my brother's partner's brother[lol] danced with me, then out of the blue, arnem was there and danced with me! i was so effing surprised, i didn't what to do, should i put my right hand on his left should i just put my arms over his shoulders or something? lolz. then he put his hands on my waist so i put my hands over his shoulder and tried to dance.. then like, two seconds later, elcid came with the camera[thank goodness!] and arnem walked away. it was the most agonizing 5 seconds of my life. and do you know what's stupider? my heart started beating really fast. ugh. i hate myself.

anyway, before all that, i woke up after 7 hours of sleep and went to the so-called "salon" at 9 o'clock to get my hair done. 9 o'clock! geez. but it was fun there. 10 of my classmates had their make up done there too, so we were pretty loud. and gian gave me a new script, and i was totally freaking out cause i already nailed the first one, now we're doing it all over again! ugh
then i went home around noon and took a nap, but i still can't.. cause of all the stupid curlers on my head. then at 2, val and i went back to the "salon" and had our faces retouched and all the curlers taken out. then cj picked me up, and it was so hot in his car! lolz

my emcee-ing went fine, but then my throat went all sore after the first part of the program, but whatever. after that we had dinner, took tons of pictures and danced all night long. after the 2nd or 3rd song, my feet were so tired and i took my shoes off and danced some more. i danced with emerson, who made me feel like a little girl cause he kept making me twirl and stuff. CJ was awkward, and Kristan was hilarious. he thought CJ and i were boyfriend and girlfriend, so i was like, "remember our deal? i'll have a boyfriend when i have 3000 pesos to pay you, Klier and Tezza. " Matt was okay, we just talked and stuff. then during the disco, i was dancing like crazy. hah. i don't care if i danced like a monkey. i had fun and i danced all night long with my girlfriends. hah! the music sucked during the disco. when we were all "in the zone" for dancing crazy, they would play something sweet, and when we started dancing with our partners, they would play in the ayer or low. but the entrance song was great: bella's lullaby, white horse(taylor swift) and like a star(corrine bailey rae) and during the exchange of tokens, they played the piano version of numb(linkin park), and flightless bird, american mouth-the song from bella and edward's prom and many others.

my feet still hurt. bruce didn't make it to prom and the deadline for our computer project is tomorrow! ugh. i'll be posting prom pics on my next post. *dies

my article in our school paper came out, and it's so embarrassing. ugh
what was I thinking?! Twilight: A love story with a bite by Vanessa Marie L. Cullen.
oh, right. i wasn't.
now i have to avoid places in school with a lot of people cause they'd be all, "oi! cullen!" as in, ku-len.
my twilight days are way over, i shouldn't have done this. whatever. moving on..
let's talk about that someone i hate. hah! now the whole high school department hates her. wanna know why?? lolz.
there's an article in the editorial section about the ways we cheat(hiding small sheets of paper, writing on alcohol bottles, covering our face with hair, etc.). and it's actually written by THE NO. 1 traitor in class, but his name wasn't on it. instead, the credits were all given to Shariah. which is pretty awesome. as they say on television, binabatikos siya. there's this rumor going around that she's doing all those things she's written and that's why she's rank 1. haha
now that NDEAs are over, i have prom to face. which i'm still not looking forward to. i finally figured out what the color of my dress is: indigo. lol.
we're having practices in school, which sucks. cause Ray and I are the friggin' "toast masters" as in, emcees and we have to dance the cha-cha. this is just plain crap. seriously! i hate dancing.
this morning, while they were practicing, i helped make the video presentation, and it's not doing so well. i really don't want to go to school later, but ma'am would kill me, and i have to memorize my script. oh well.
my girl classmates were ecstatic when we got out of the gym this morning. i'd love to say that the weather is awesome today, because it is, but then.. if it's still raining later, then that would totally mess up ate camille and mina's prom. i hope they don't get rained on or anything.

the newspaper is driving me crazy. i've been in internet cafes all day for two days, thanks to our usb port-less cpu. we're the 'second best' team, but i don't think so. a lot of my groupmates keep copy-pasting articles, and everyone wants the easy jobs[horoscope, obituaries, classifieds, peso-dollar rates]. but i didn't assign that to anybody. i'm doing them, plus a twilight/hp review. like greysh's. lol
and shariah is such a.. a..bitch. ugh. i know, i've used that word millions of times in my blogs, but damnit, it's true. and she is so stupid! backstabbing me, at my twin sister!? like, are you kidding me!? hah! i was right. i should never treat you as a friend. she was all, 'grabe yang kambal mo ba, gusto niya gid ako talbugan.' who's intimidated now!? and whenever i'm working on the paper in school at nathaly's laptop,[bless her, we're not group mates but she lets me use it.] she keeps hovering. ha-ha. i don't care if you're the 'dream team,' and i'm not trying to be better than you, or my sister! for your information, valerie and i are awesome in our own ways. so good luck trying to make us compete.

me: uy, anne! mas maputi na'ko sa'yo! wee!
shariah:[probably sick of me pretending she doesn't exist-she's anne's seatmate] hala 'tol,[wtf, close tayo?] kaputi mo na, nagagamit ako ng belo ba, nakaubos na ako ng isang bar.
me to vanessa e., my seatmate: huh. ako gani kalahati pa lang, pumuti na kahit papano. siya jan, nakaubos na ng isa.. haha. asa pa siya na magtino yang balat niya.

i'm obsessed with my skin kasi, lulz. i hate the sun. i'm not THAT maputi naman, pero i try. ;D
anyway, i hate her. one time, i just got my baon and i put all of my money in my bag, and she saw it, and she was like,
'baon mo van?'
duh. 'uh, yeah.'
'patingin daw..' and i gawked at her.
and she said again, 'patingin daw van..'
di ka pa ba nakakita ng pera, ha? ugh.
so yeah. i handed her the bills, and she started counting while i surreptitiously put alcohol on,[she uses up all my alcohol kasi, and she gets it from me before i could even say no.] .. and she tried handing it to me. and i thought, that's money! people touch that after touching who-knows-what!
'pakilagay na lang sa bag..' and she did, and you know what she did next? she wiped the sweat off her face. eww, right? sorry, i just have this thing against holding money and not applying alcohol afterwards.

anyways, i have more work to do.

P.S. to ate camille, greysh and mina: good luck on the NDEAs/prom!