i close my eyes, and the flashback starts.

not a lot of people know this, but when i'm depressed, i like to splurge, which is stupid because when i think of how much i've spent i just get even more depressed. when i'm out of town, i spend it on clothes or just stuff which i think look nice. like when i got lost in Cebu because everyone was gone and I loved traveling alone, i spent about a thousand bucks on starbucks twice in one night and this shirt at artwork for my brother that turned out to be two sizes too small. but since i'm in tacurong, i waste on food/drinks. today i have had someone buy me food for recess, went to Moi Ponne's cafe alone(loner mode), i promised myself never to drink coffee, so I consumed 4-yes, 4- cans of pepsi-i personally prefer coke better, but our school doesn't sell coke despite this big red canteen with the "Coca-Cola" on the roof that we have. i am currently resisting the urge to buy a 1500mL bottle of Coke.

anyway, now that you know about my spending problem, let me tell you about why i'm depressed right now. the projects are a disaster. note to self: never make people's projects. I am all about minimalism, so when i handed out 13 (CJ's still in Ilocos) people's projects, they were all "this is my 100 pesos? do it again!" and so I made their new projects and when Precious saw hers she was like, "Long, bakit ganito? maikli lagi? yung kay fle gani mahaba.. tas bakit ganito yung papel?" srsly, it took all my restraint to keep myself from yelling at her face saying "pucha! eh tatanga-tanga ka pala eh, tinatanong kita anong gusto mo tas anong sinabi mo? ikaw lang bahala long, basta gandahan mo." Her project was pretty good, mind you. Because I gave her MY project. or the fonts and the format, at least. lulz. that bitch. and Janilyne was all, "hmph!" while she stomped her 1.5-inch shoes. gahd. I know it's my fault, but did they have to react like that? i was so pissed. 1) because I spent so much, 2) because after worrying so much about other people's projects mine sucked. I spent so much money on their fucking projects, kulang pa yung money na binayad nila. bwiset. naka-ilang tapal na ako, nag-iipon pa naman ako for the jersey on intrams. (reminder: my computer is wayy older than yours, it doesn't have a usb port or colored printer that i had to make them in Nathaly's laptop or in cafes)

i also got zero on a 40-item quiz on Filipino because i forgot my quiz notebook at home and to Ma'am Dagamac, not having a quiz notebook during quizzes is not having a score at all.


the only good thing is that we finally worked out our investigatory project-a million and one thanks to jue. (:
some people may not see that as a good thing, like my pessimistic side who's saying "it's not a bad thing-yet" but still, God is still great. it's just me who isn't. shoot. that's what you get for missing church and still getting your mass card signed, V!

by the way, i'm joining stuff on intrams. I was previously assigned to play scrabble, but since i suck at the whole scoring part, i decided to join word factory or as i used to call it when i was 7, boggle. xD that was my very first big word. lollerz. and valerie and i are also the organizers. we're gonna run around school to make sure we don't get any defaults or something.

and on the 19th we're sponsoring a mass and i am the freaking commentator. it's gonna be fun, since i SUCK at reading aloud and all. especially when it's in tagalog. xD

and after exams we'll be having plays. not skits-but plays. we're not doing priam ransoms the body of hector/hector and andromache's farewell anymore, but we're doing all the love stories. my group has Pyramus and Thisbe and I'm the script writer-which is awesome because I'm a sucker for tragedies and it gives me an excuse to reread New Moon.

oh well. exams next week; math is making sense-thanks to Ma'am Aruelo and Rigel. xDD