i close my eyes, and the flashback starts.

the year-ender thing felt sort of required, but the new year's resolutions? erm.. i don't think i have enough will-power to actually do them, but i'm supposed to be more optimistic this year so here goes! lolz

1) be more optimistic. because i'm the most negative person ever. before i do something, i would tell myself "yeah, but you'd fail so don't put too much effort"-of course i would fail! expecting too much, is bad for me. because i take rejection very, very badly. and when bad stuff happens, you get to pick between two things: you become bad, or you learn from it. i must learn to do the latter.

2) control my temper(and my tongue). when i'm mad, i get really mad. i would speak everything that's on my mind and not care who gets hurt by my words.

3) save more. i think this is on everyone's list. i need to save more talaga. even if i don't plan on buying anything, who knows diba? one time, i went out with my classmates and there was this thing i wanted to buy but unfortunately, i didn't have money. and when i did, out of stock na daw. i don't want that to happen again.

4) be more sociable. this, i think, is the hardest. on New Year's Eve, my cousinslashpartner-in-crime RD told me that if we weren't cousins, she didn't think we would be close. i asked her why, and she told me na i'm always silent daw. i'm loud, i know that, but i am often at loss for words. which brings us to

5) expand the vocab. i actually have a notebook filled with words i've come across and their meanings and them being used in a sentence. words from books i've read, movies, and such. it's about time i peruse it.

6) get a course. i only hava a year and a few months left, and i still don't know what i want to do and what to take up for college. good luck to me. ;D

7) clean the room. i've been too lazy to clean up kasi, especially when i'm caught up with books.

i'm rereading Deathly Hallows. i have the worst memory ever(as you all may know) and i forgot what happened. i'm on page 250 something, and i have to finish it before i go back to school.
speaking of school, i'm gonna try not to use my backpack na. haha. my sister gave me a sort-of shoulder bag and i bet Klier's gonna be shocked, because i told her i wouldn't be caught dead using them and that i hate them soo much. xD

have an awesome 2009 everyone! (;