i close my eyes, and the flashback starts.

i fake a smile so they won't see.
not a very merry Christmas for me.. i feel like killing myself.. ugh.
nobody cares..nobody seems to understand..
the only person i thought would understand me, failed me. or maybe it's the other way around or something. whatever, doesn't matter. i'm still a stupid, stupid girl.
the dunce who took the risk and thought that maybe, just maybe, things would get better. that if i did something right, my life would get any better.
apparently not.

i hope your christmas is better than mine.
*dies.